I do not think that means what you think it means

I am absolutely unmotivated this week. I can't bring myself to go to the gym. I am going to try and force myself to go tomorrow and hopefully it will help me get back into the rhythm. I was not feeling great this morning and just wanted to snuggle up and watch a good movie all day but for some reason this never works when kids are around. I got the older two to school and we got to stay n'play only 1/2h late which was pretty good for us. They had a glow theme so there were areas blackened and a black light in there with fun glowie things. then in the water room it was dark and full of glow sticks. The kids had fun and Ava and I did a puzzle. we did it a few times together and then she did it all by herself. She was pretty proud of how awesome she is I was too. We left early so I could get them lunch before leaving to Cranston. Mom came home from her earlier session just in time for me to head out. I went to the 1:00 session and I had a really hard time paying attention. My mind just wouldn't focus on anything. I was starting to feel queezy during the session but thankfully held out till I got home and to a bathroom. ( I tell you this in an effort to make myself less attractive.) The kids were in good moods Preston and Ava were in REALLY good moods and were laughing as they attacked each other and ran all over the house. They were slightly hyper. Izaac read his book most of the day and was super stoked that he finished it. I am so excited that he is enjoying reading. Even if his comprehension isn't quite there it is huge that he actually wants to read and has a feeling of accomplishment for doing so.
We had an early dinner and then baths, pjs, scriptures with you, books and bed. It all went according to plan. Ava is still hanging on at 9 but what can ya do. I guess its better then 10. She just plays and plays in her bed. Talking to herself and her toys. I can usually hear her through the vent and it kinda sounds like a ghost child is haunting the house but thats alright.

I soaked in a warm shower before now getting ready for bed. I still just feel yucky and want to throw up a little bit but I am hoping sleeping will take care of most of that.

I love you more then Wesley loves Buttercup. You are my "To blavvvvvve" and a life without you would be inconceivable.

I would go through a fire swamp just to see you.

no more rhyming now I mean it!!!