brain block

I'm sitting here and don't know what to write. But I have been reading in my parenting book that we need to make connections and sometimes that just means persistently doing something, just showing that we are willing to put ourselves out there and not give up on the other. So I'm writing this letter and it may not have a point but I want you to know that I want to connect with you. So let's connect!

Which reminds me of connecting the dots. A fun game that I excel at. We can also connect the two points that separate us. We shall connect in Louisiana. I liked reading your reunion letter. It's funny to just hear your side of what that might be like. I feel like when I read mine it is something I must have seen from a movie and that is why it is in my head. However it is, it will just be nice to see you REAL faces and feel them and kiss you and hold your hand. I love to hold your hand. When we are buried, I want to be buried holding hands.

Nothing much happens here. I think you know that by now. I have a hard time coming up with new stuff, or anything at all for that matter, to say or share. I hope that's okay. I feel very self conscious about that. I need to find fun ways to connect with the kids over the phone. I liked the video book thing but I'm not sure if that was productive. Maybe if I send some videos of something. Anyways, if you have suggestions, I'll take them. I'm not beyond stealing ideas to connect with my kids.

I did run a race. Got MY best time which isn't relatively the best but that doesn't matter, right? I'm improving. My guitar came in the mail. Very excited to play. Already learned half of blackbird. Going to spend some time with that each night.

Hope you are having fun with my parents. It is true you have spent more time with my parents since we have been married than I have. I think your mom has spent more time with my parents. I don't know if that is sad or what. I guess it is just a fact. I don't try to be away and working (though I did volunteer for this). I'm looking forward to when I can be close to home. Maybe I should call you mom one day. I still haven't had much of a real conversation with her, ever. I don't know who's fault that is but it just is.

You know what is so crazy? November is 2 days from being half over!! That is crazy because yesterday we were talking about how November is just staring and it should hopefully go fast. Well? Next week is normal then the week after is Thanksgiving! So crazy. We need to find ways to do Christmas stuff over the phone. I'll start thinking about that. We could start a new tradition from deployment.

I just want you to always remember that I want to be close to you. I love you and you are my one and only. You are my favorite! I want to make you happy and make you smile until forever.

I'll forever be yours if you'll be mine.

Love,

Your eternal counterpart