Aug 24th 2015 -Ali

Justice,
Went down to the school to register the kidlets for 2nd and 3rd grade. I filled out the paper work and am now going to return it and see if they accept them. I'm not sure how the health insurance info is going to work and all that but we shall see I suppose. It is nice to work with a small town school it seems less hectic and the Secretary is much less stressed, therefor much more helpful. The principal is one of my jr high teachers. It is funny how people recycle around here.

Church was an interesting experience. It is strange to be an outsider at home. Many faces are familiar but I don't always remember names right away but I appreciate all the kind words of welcome they offer. Preston did well at nursery. There were a lot of visitors and a few screamers so he kind of looked at them then looked at the toys and went off playing. I guess he figured others had his screaming job covered so he could be free to play. I peeked in on him a few times and he was happily eating snack and playing. We will see how long that lasts but for now it was nice. I actually got to attend Sunday school and RS. Deric taught Sunday school and did a great job. I think that is still my favorite calling and always enjoy a good discussion. I like that the Gospel seems so easy here, but not in a naive way. They focus on principals and share stories to encourage hope and understanding in each other. I am grateful for the strengthening testimony that is here and hope I will be humble enough to benefit from it. The closing song in RS was "Be Still My Soul" and I was grateful for the peaceful song. I feel such an inner unsettling. perhaps from not knowing what the kids are doing for school, partly from not waiting for you to be settled and partly from trying to figure out my place back here again with family.

We had a dinner after church at Grandma Harrisons. There were a lot of kids around and Mailei wanted a seat at the adult table but there wasn't room for me so I sat outside with Izaac and the wasps that kept the other kids from venture outside to eat. It was interesting to sit right on the outside listening through the window what is normal for them and seems so long away for me. I know I have to get over myself and jump in but I am tired from the effort of even thinking about it.

I was thinking why this is so hard to be away from you and I miss you holding me. I want to feel you all around me. I am grateful to snuggle with the kids but it isn't the same as having your hold me. I am grateful to have therm here with me and love all the crazy that they bring.

Izaac claimed one of Grandmas bikes and has been exploring around town. He is so funny on his giant bike but he is happy and I am glad he has something to do and a town safe enough to explore around.

I am going to go find an adventure I need something to draw my focus. I feel a sense of limbo waiting for school to start and summer to end but I am going to try and embrace the few days of warm that are left for me this year. It was 50 this morning:(

I love you more then everything. I hope you are having a good day training and learning all they want you too.

Your adoring wife and eternal partner in crime:)

Ali